In my second year of graduate school, I’ve come to the realization that I’m having fun. I get to choose the classes I actually want to take; I’m surrounded by people who understand my exclamation of “That’s so Latour!” and they even hang out with me on the weekends; and I get to take on a research project that has everything to do with science communication for the youth, i.e. my future business idea and/or career goal.
What’s more is that when I think of my impending graduation, I do not feel as if I will die like I did during undergrad. Yes, that’s exaggerated, but it’s truly how I felt: wholly unprepared and underqualified. Now, however, I feel confident having gained useful skills and knowledge that will sustain me as I pursue a career that I actually want. I feel like I don’t have to settle anymore. I don’t have to settle for the job that I think I’m supposed to do, rather, I can obtain the job that I know I can do and that I’m good at.
A major development in “things that I am good at” includes public speaking. When my high school friend, Jake, moved here for university, he couldn’t believe I was teaching a class. He couldn’t believe it because he’d always known me as the shy, quiet girl. I never had much to say and I only spoke when necessary. On my journey through graduate school, however, I’ve had countless opportunities to speak in front of large audiences and those experiences have pushed me to grow. One thing I’m really proud of, for example, is that my personality test evolved from “I” to “E”, or, from introvert to extrovert! While I still have introvert tendencies (nothing like hanging out in your room alone!), I’m more comfortable with putting myself out there and making connections. I’ve realized that I love talking to people.
What sparked this blog post is the fact that it is midnight and I am still awake researching for my thesis. Sure, this may be the result of my poor planning, but it’s also because the research I’m conducting is very stimulating. I have an idea for what I want to say and then I go out and find scholars who supplement or have criticisms about that idea. It’s like a personal scavenger hunt and I’m learning so much along the way. If that isn’t the goal in life, I don’t know what is!